I haven’t posted in a while, haven’t been around much, and I know you boys are missing me desperately. Even if I didn’t hear the desperation in your voices when I talk to you, I’d know. 
What’s funny is, that none of my boys have spoken to me any less! I noticed this when I left my website/blog offline for MONTHS after the hacking…. just not SEEING me post seems to hurt you. Seems to make you miss me more.
The sadist in me enjoys that, I like to think of you crying for me, aching longing missing me.
The novel is coming along nicely! It is looking like I’ll be finishing it before deadline. (For those of you not in the know, i.e. most of you dorks LOL, the first 3 chapters of a novel that I’d sent to a publisher were accepted.*** I now have until June to finish the novel. It’s very rare that an unpublished author be given the contract I received. But we always knew that I’m exceptional, didn’t we? )
Between my usually busy fabulous, perfect life and the novel, I’ve been exceptionally busy! And while I’m busy writing my novel, I won’t be writing here as much. I’m focusing most of my writing energy on the novel and not here.
I won’t be writing the posts that make you feel all opened up and raw like I looked right through you. And while I know how desperately you want/need/crave those words, it’s far more important that I do what I need to do for ME.
Luckily for you, I’m not all mean! I have a few simple things I want you to do while I’m too busy to write much here. These are things you should be doing anyway, but I’ve never really structured them out like this. I’ll be posting these little short things for you to do for me every few days.
Today’s assignment: Realign your selfish thoughts to thoughts of me. Take all of that missing-Sue energy and realign it. It’s a subtle shift, but I want you to stop thinking about yourself, silly selfish boy-o. It’s time to stop thinking about what YOU want, even thinking about how much YOU miss me.
It’s time to just stop those thoughts about your own selfish ass and your own selfish desires. To stop every single time you notice them. JUST STOP.
And replace it with thoughts about ME. Think about what I am doing, about how much I must be enjoying MY life, about what you can do to make MY enjoyment of life even better, how you can improve MY world. How kind I am for sharing MY world.
Just that subtle shift makes all the difference. And just think, it’s what I’m thinking about, too, so we can share those perfect thoughts!
I think you may find out that you are surprised about how often you think such selfish thoughts soaked in your own ego! And from that new knowledge of just how you-driven you’ve been, you can start getting closer to where you should be: focusing on ME!
xoxo
(edited to add:)
*** I’m not talking about the novel in even the briefest detail. Not with family, friends, my boys, or anyone at all. The simple reason for this is that I’m funneling all of my talk-about-the-book-energy into actually-writing-the-book.
It’s a pretty standard “don’t talk about it; write about it” writer’s rule, but even more so for a talkative bitch like me. So to all of you who are curious about the book… you’ll have to wait until I’m done to hear about it in any detail.
Suffice it to say that it is standard, mainstream fiction. (Although it’s laced with power dynamics and sick twists…. it does come from my mind after all!)
You can’t really even SEE how many boxes are in there stacked behind those boxes!!!
Hmmm and what was in allllll those boxes?
